the first step

i need to learn.

to learn to see things as they are. see the bad as the bad. see the good as good they already are. to learn to see the things not in the way i desire to see them as... even if that means letting go of all hope and expectations. it would be a great lesson to learn.

because at the current state i am in, i can't afford to be disappointed again. at least not now.

so yes, learn to see the glass as not half-empty, not half-full but a glass with just water in it.