muse

i've been trying out sketching faces again lately. i can never get it right. i always think they don't have ANY similarities to the subjects but now i think i see a bit. maybe i'm just tooting my own horn. lol. i blame the extra time in between after work and classes at uni. speaking of work, there are so many sunny's styles that i have to remember but my boss is the sweetest. i'm glad i fit in with the people at work. anyway, here's my favourite sketch so far :)

i appreciate how despite the circumstances,
you still find appreciation in the littlest things :)

anticipation- 5AM

thanks to nanda- i may have finally found the retail experience i've always wanted & needed too! can't wait to start training on monday. i'm not going to get paid for the next 2 training sessions and of course, i'd still be under probation for the following 2-3 months .. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? i really don't care. i'm just really grateful as it is :)

and a new-found friend, er.. more like 'long-lost-now-found-friend'. crap, that didn't make freaking sense right? oh well. well yeah, so where was i..? yes, he mentioned this song. THE (for now, for me, that is) song to get your adrenalin pumpin' - catchy beat. here's to the last week of uni before the easter holidays! good luck with them assignments and exams, dear little bunnies :)

to you & skeptics

if you keep filtering colours, you will eventually become colour blind.

SO. currently doing my assignments in the kitchen. but every time i look up away from the computer screen, these "ghosts" keep glaring at me in the face.

HMM.

pieces

this is so funny & unbelievable at the same time. i found my kindie mate who used to chase me around the playground, trying to propose to me. i don't know why i still remembered this piece of memory. i think it's really .. somehow exciting, strange and amusing when someone from your childhood memory appears out of nowhere, and after such a freakin' long time. and yeah, i accepted his proposal. HAHA :)

you know that chinese firecracker that people light during chinese new year or a grand opening. yes, the one that kinda looks like chilis hanging on the sides of a thin long rope. that's what the month of march is to me. birthdays everywhere and almost everyday! anyway, the presents above (wrapped personally by moi, teehee) belongs to melissa, yumi & johno. i recall leon mentioning how retro my style is - even in my wrapping style. oh well.

my saturday

my saturday's been productive. and no... i did not hit the waves. sigh. i'll definitely try and squeeze in some beach time before week 6 and after of week 7. not too devastated about it because i haven't found the perfect bikini to go with my planned escapade. plus, i need to round the girls together- dire need to get my girls away from the tight clutches of the men in their lives. i wonder if i sound like a bitter single woman after that last sentence. lol :)

i got two essay outlines done! i'm on a bloody roll, watch out!

sherlene & i hit the 'met' again with mouzam and shane. pretty mellow night, i reckon. disregard the pushing, shoving, ass-grabbing, breathe in your hair and just plain ugh strangers. anyway.. in regards to sherlene's post. yes, the 'game'.

it looks like i've been picking out the same kinda guy too. the 'quiet' one in the group. the one that comes off as snobbish .. but given the benefit of doubt, maybe just way too shy. or has a girlfriend for the matter, lol. always the so-called reserved, quiet and shy one. maybe i like the challenge. maybe i like to tease. maybe i find comfort in knowing that there's someone out there kinda like me. ivan & sherlene were discussing the other day about whether they'd date themselves. i said yes. without hesitation. i'd definately date me. such a narcissistic point of view, yes? hmm, dominant personalities intimidate and interest me at the same time but i know that i'll probably never be one amongst the lot. i prefer to shy away and let them have their moment in the spotlight. however, in a case where a 'shy' one and i were put together, i involuntarily and automatically mould myself to be the dominant of the two. sigh, i love comfort. that being said, i'm not concluding that i will never be attracted to the 'loud', opinionated and ladies man kind- it just takes a lot chemistry than the usual :)

off to bed. mwuah <3

because

sigh.
because i'm vain.
because my best friend is an ass but i heart him to bits, still.
&
because i can't wait to hit the beach on saturday.

which also means,
BIKINI shopping tomorrow :)

i've got a million and one things to do.
few includes:

1. handing out MORE job resumes
2. structure outlines for 4 major essays by early next week
   
3. wrap j's present
4. give yumi her present, lol
5. buy presents for 2 others
   
6. LAUNDRY, freakin' laundry!

& the list goes bloody on.

so.
how's life people?

P/S: are you feelin' this? love.

week 4

my 2nd piece of assessment is due tomorrow. i'm not really stressing it since it's basically only 500 words and worth 10%. having said that however, i'm going to get it done before sleep tonight. before last year, i used to suppress my panic mode. i'd have a 3000 word research essay due the next day and slept like a baby the night before without having written even one word of it. and the next day, i'd get up at 1pm, be at the library by 2.30pm .. finish the entire thing by 7.30pm. due time was at 12 midnight. of course, it wasn't the best essay in the world but i did manage to get a credit- thank God! if you asked me now to pull a stunt like that, i'd scream, "ARE YOU FREAKIN' OUT OF YOUR FREAKIN' MIND?!" lol. starting last year, i managed to do a bit of prioritising and started research and creating outlines for my essays about 5 days before the actual due date and then finish the assignment a day or two earlier. i must say, it's an awesome feeling knowing you don't have to rush double-checking, printing, filling in assignment minder forms, etc. since then, i've been trying my best to keep up this routine :)

now back to work. sigh.

fate

chemistry is probably the one of the rarest things that people could ever have with me the first time they meet me. with me, it'll take extra time (after 4-6 meets) to finally tell if we could eventually click. but last year, i met this person who, only after the first meet, we clicked. it felt so easy to talk and laugh with this person. we're few years apart, we don't quite share the same taste in music and movies, we belong to different cliques, and we have next to zero similar experiences in life. but we click. it's like exploring the world through another person. i think it's quite remarkable how chemistry works. anyway, somehow or rather we had a bit of a fall out towards the end of the year. i figured perhaps, our chemistry died along with the growing distance between us.

but today. today we accidently bumped into each other. i expected awkwardness and repetitive talks on the weather and well-being but no, we again, clicked. it was like time apart never happened. we were comfortable, we laughed, and we shared: conversations of travel, middle-child syndrome, pork, looking for fat louie, the angry cat, keropok lekor, etc. when it was time to go, i knew at the back of my mind, reasons why we were supposed to grow apart. we said our goodbyes, knowing this could probably be the 'last' time till God knows when. sigh, i miss this person. i miss the ease of being myself that this person brought. why do good things never seem to last?

sweet

uni has been ... well, pretty crowded. you can pretty much guess the weeks according to the number of students scurrying around uni. early semester, crowded. then the crowd gradually lessens, only to fluctuate again somewhere in week 7 when most first assignments are due. i was walking through uni today when it dawned on me that i'm a senior. can't believe i'll be graduating soon. the corporate world terrifies me, honestly. anyway, i hate that most of my classes start around 5-8pm but thankful at the same time that there's only 1 that starts at 9am. here's to making the best of the first 1/2 of 2009 aight :)

quick plug here: for those who love editing the light in their photos via adobe, you must, must, must try out adobe LIGHTROOM. it's beyond awesome! i used to do multiple layers of colours and adjusting the opacity but with lightroom, you do it with just ONE click. freakin' genius!

just a lil' bargain hunting @ Diva & pharmacies. couldn't help myself: i have a current addiction for chunky bangles and blushers. probably because i can't blush. i never do- the best i can do is the worst- flush red. lol. and i've always wanted to try out playboy's make up and at $5 per blush, i couldn't resist. sigh.

P/S: i'll be changing my layout soon. i wonder if anyone's thinking, "FINALLY!" lol.

dream

i have a friend who believes in his dreams. dreams that were meant to be messages from God. i didn't really believe him at first. he tells me of his dreams and how it truly reflected what was happening and what would happen. nevertheless, i respected his beliefs. everyone is special one way or another and perhaps, this was God's gift to this friend of mine. he told me that one day, he prayed to God and asked about 'the one' that was meant for him. that night, he dreamt of her. he told me he didn't quite knew who she was but had an inkling feeling that he had seen her before. if truly she was 'the one', my friend was one hell of a lucky son of a gun. i replied that i envied him and he told me to go pray and ask God the same thing.

i couldn't bring myself to. i was too afraid. i wasn't ready.

but i did asked God to help me with something. something that has been lingering on my mind for a long time now.

and so last night, i dreamt.

:(

of tequila&long island.

seriously. i'm torn between deciding whether alcohol comes with moments of clarity.. or vulnerability.. and/or stupidity. most of our experiences come with regret but what if, in some miraculous way, unearths your deepest desire and the path that you were meant to pursue? disregard all the warning signs that scream the forbidden, disregard the logic, disregard the impossible.

anyway, i just got home from clubbing with few friends. yumi mentioned how she's grown out of the whole clubbing scene. truth be told, i still enjoy clubbing because of the music, the dancing and just hanging out. i do sometimes wonder the possibility of meeting someone in the club and the success rate of that even happening. i saw couples everywhere tonight. one night stand couples (maybe), couples in love, match-made couples, accidental couples, and starting out couples, etc. i know, i know, at least i'm not alone. at least i have friends. don't get me wrong, i appreciate every single person that's in my life right now. but i can't help but wish i had someone to dance with, knowing that even by the end of the song, he'll still be holding my hand. someone to come home with, come home to. someone to crawl in bed with, tell me i'm the one even after stripped of all make up and pretty dresses. someone to kiss me goodnight, and wake up to the next day. i guess it's true for me, no man is an island.

EDIT 1.12pm;
ALL THE SINGLE LADIES! ALL THE SINGLE LADIES!!! XD

by the way, here's a controversial song but addictive nonetheless :)

Want It, Need It (Feat Ashanti) - Plies

back in brisbane

twilight.

a.k.a the time of the day immediately following sunset.

a.k.a the name of stephanie meyer's vampire-based fantasy novel, also adapted onto the silver screen.

today, after relentless searching the entire world wide web for video links to the movie and not to mention several 'fan ban' dvd stores back home for the dvd, i finally paid a good $6.50 to savour it (legally, lol) @myers. i didn't harbour any high expectations for the movie because i have seen sneak previews of scenes online and it was a bit of a let down. but anyways, i was still curious and being an avid fan of the written work, i desperately wanted to watch it, to see words brought to life.

verdict:

i thought the cast was quite the eye candy. i did expect 'rosalie' to be so much more gorgeous though (no offense to the actress, which by the way, looks so much more gorgeous as the brunette that she is in real life). despite my thoughts of rob pattinson not being really THAT adonis-like, i couldn't picture anyone else pulling off as 'edward cullen' physically. kristen stewart, i really heart and think she's one of the most beautiful woman i've seen. everyone else fit their roles fairly well.

acting-wise: well, in all honesty, i reckon rob and kristen could have done better. it could be their slight frigidness of the character's potrayal, or kristen's constant stammering and lip-biting that got me pretty distracted. it was somewhere in the middle of the movie that i felt like i finally, truly, saw 'edward' and 'bella'. i began to regret actually reading the book before the movie. it's always been that way for me, even with the harry potter books.

i must say though, the producers stayed very true to the book. given, of course, some scenes had to be re-written, but the gist of it was always there. i liked that. i left the theater feeling not entirely satisfied. the film was not as memorable as i would have wanted it to be. nonetheless, i was content that my burning curiosity was finally tamed. i do look forward to its sequel, definitely, just to see the pairing of rob and kirsten again. lol. like i said before, i pretty much despised 'new moon's' story.

i don't comprehend the rave reviews of fellow 'twilighters' who have seen it at least twice 5 and possibly even 7 times. maybe it's the handsome cast or maybe i'm just NOT that of die-hard fanatic. and maybe there's something i missed in my interpretation of the novel. oh well.

by the way, guess who completed her twilight saga??? :)

P/S: i can't help but wonder .. would a brunette brittany snow play a better 'bella swan'? *ducks rotten melons by kristen and twilight fans*!

P/P/S: i think i might be graduating earlier than expected ... AWESOME! :)

blah

i never really realised how exhausted i was until today. maybe it's time i took a breather. anyway, brisbane by sunday night. summer study results by tomorrow.

stillness

i've successfully completed meyer's saga :) .. via ipod notes. that's right, i have been reading books into the wee hours of dawn on a mere 2" LCD screen. lol, the trouble i put myself through when obssessed. i have actually grown quite accustomed to it despite the continuous squinting the first few hours. it's bad, i know. anyway, i'm not off the vampire bandwagon as of yet so i decided to attempt rice's, 'interview with the vampire'. i really liked the movie so why not aye? oh, and i finally bought 'brida' by paul coelho for rm60 + . i've read (everytime i get tired of microscopic letters) till page 79 now. i quite like it so far but i'm going to save it for the flight back to brisbane.. just in case they don't have personal tvs :(

haha, i'm doing the typical- posting photos of flowers after valentine's. i love pink roses but i'm getting fond of violet ones now. they look almost pink to me. i had a pretty good valentine's. thank you, you.

here's a quote from 'brida' by paul coelho,

sometimes we set off down a path simply because we don't believe in it, it's easy enough. all we have to do then is prove that it isn't the right path for us. however, when things start to happen, and the path does reveal itself to us, we become afraid of carrying on.

click!

last week my folks and i drove to Papar to visit great grandma. that's her and aunty betty. they're both celebrating their birthdays. sometimes i wonder if i could survive living in kampungs. the things i'd do: fishing .. fishing .. and well, fishing. lol. hmm, and maybe organise snail races.

that's the oldest dog of mine. don't laugh .. his name is 'puppy'. it's one of the rarest photos of him because he never looks at the camera and practically runs for dear life when one is within 1 ft of him. weird dog. yes, i realised that i've been referring my dog as 'him'.

rain's pretty much gone after the last day of chinese new year. it was raining every freakin' day before , i tell you. funny, huh. anyway, i kinda miss it but at least clothes dry faster now and it's easier to get around to places.

valentine's is tomorrow. i'm not dreading it. i've kept constant with daddy, making sure he buys mummy flowers. lol. dad's pretty clueless sometimes but i don't blame him. it's part of his charm. bugger! dinner reservations! forgot about that. crap. crap. crap. anyway, am off. happy valentine's day to everyone in advance! :)

snippets

i don't know why but i rarely go crazy with the camera as i do in brisbane, here in KK. anyways, here's a few about CNY. ooh, i went through music CDs i burnt 1/2 years ago and am loving lionel richie's 'i call it love' again. catchy melody :)

mum, dad & i


grandma, grandpa & i


my youngest cousin, jason


joanne, my cousin who is sweet16 this year


camwhore/ drunk girlfriend/ best friend & i


friends: dayze, aaron, gloria, nazman, adam & lee swee chee

cups of tea

i think i made a mistake buying fresh&white's applemint flavoured toothpaste. smells great but the second it enters my mouth, it feels like candy gone soft and melted. ugh. mental note to self to stick to mint flavour, period.

anyways, been humming to the sweet melodies of khalil fong. i like. nevermind not understanding a word of his entire album, apart from the 1st track entitled, 'sing-a-long' (quite a cute song, this one). you should check out his album if you want a short break from all them hiphop, r&b, rock, alternative scene. of course it's pop, but soul-pop i guess. sunday afternoon music, i call it.

looks like i won't be reading a word of meyer's saga until i hit borders in brisbane again. called up bookstores all over kk but to no avail. boo :( but it's ok.. for now. mum decided to rekindle with her old flame- TVB dramas. yes, i've been stuffing myself with back-2-back episodes of 'gem of life' every night before i sleep. i'm not addicted it to it, noooo ;)

alright, i'm off. meeting dayze in a bit for the annual sticky pic ritual. she's flying off tomorrow. i'll miss her. dang, i feel like good old fashioned bah kut teh now.

the ride home

my entire 6 hour + plane ride came to a culmination of vampires, werewolves & forbidden love. yes, instead of my usual diet - cosmopolitan, SHOP and celebrity gossip magazines, i decided to pick up stephanie meyer's critically acclaimed saga "twilight". (and NO, she will never be the next j.k. rowling.. sorry, just had to get this in here somehow.) i have to say, despite all the mixed reviews online, i would go as far as to say i fell for 'twilight'. it's that bad of an infatuation that i even have a song that i listen to every time i get to scenes of edward & bella. exactly as a friend of mine mentioned, it is very much a reminiscent drive down memory lane to books my 14/16 year old self read. it's been a while and i must say, it felt nice. and as silly as this sounds, i appreciated the fact that the book could paint me the familiar feelings of 'young love' again. the naivety, the stubborness, the eargerness, the 'i-don't-care-if-the-world-is-against-me,-i-love-him-and-i-would-do-ANYTHING-for-him, he-is-the-reason-i-breathe'. so, next thing i did?

... bought 'new moon'. the verdict: i wasn't too fond of it. in fact, 1/2 of the book became a wee bit tiresome to read. maybe i was biased, considering edward pretty much disappeared 3/4 off the pages of the book. i don't know. i was on the verge of regretting having purchase new moon, thinking perhaps i should have left at my most satisfied- 'twilight'.

... but damn you, curiosity. next thing i knew i was googling the saga's ending. i was again.. left satisfied. well, i will say this: i will be completing my saga collection. one way or another, that is, because damn you, bookstores here in KK for being incompetent at restocking popular collections. how is that possible? sigh. i should probably blame myself for being joining the twilight scene a tad bit late. everyone i asked merely responded plainly, "wasn't that last year?"

fine.

oh, and happy chinese new year :)

sleepless.

one of the many songs that keep you company at 4am.

P/S: i have decided to fly back to KK for the entire month of february. despite how homesick i am & how much i rave about loving home, i don't know why there's this teeny tiny part of me that feels heavy to leave brisbane again.

P/P/S: i realise how much of a people pleaser i am.

P/P/P/S: i blame 'grey's anatomy' for this blog entry at 4am. damn free tv shows online.

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paris or something like it

yesterday, it was 'paris' @milton. my 2nd time there but this time, i fell in love. that's the 'eiffel tower' .. pretty right? :)

and this is 'la dolce vita' (a cafe built right under the tower), which also means 'the sweet life'.. (i googled. and found out that it's italian- funny considering the eiffel tower but oh well.)

one word: yum.


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might be flying back to KK again for the entire month of february. still very much undecided though. anyway- i have to say, new year 2009 is looking swell from where i stand. today i found out something that pretty much help put a big pink bow on my 2008. here's something random my friend txted me the other day, "any day not spent 6 feet under is a good day". LOL!